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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Studying psycho in progress...

Cos... got psycho test tml!!!

Got Hs 1082 ICA!!!

And... next wed, (I think) - got Bio pract test.

ahhh!!! all at one shot...

cant stop and rest!!!

SOB!

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Monday, November 27, 2006

Another fun fun day!

But... early in the morning was so tensed up ^^
haha! I got my clinical assessment today... and... i dont know who's my assesser!

So scary! So nervous and tenses up... worrying too!
Ahh... i'm worried, scared... terrified... i dont know.
Like a mixture of alot of feelings.

Went to meet Joan at Yishun Mrt platform.
Sha joining us too. she accompanied us to our assessment.
She's so cool, right? She's my lao po! MUACKIE!
Thanks... I love you! And i always do. Lolx~

Okay... we reached jus in time... we still strolling in to the toilet and then we comb our hair, tie out hair neatly... prepare out things...
And... when the moment we walked into the room and wait outside our Assessment rm, our heart started to pump harder & harder...
Getting too "excited".
Oops... nervous... tense!!!
How? Who? Why? What? When?
How will be the situation like in the clinical assessment room?
Who will be assessing us?
Why is the assesser taking so much of time... she's late somemore!
What will we be assessed? Another then dressing ( compulsory skill )???
When is my turn to be???

Questions in my mind... and i got even more nervous. Haha!
I really have no idea who's my assesser! Ahh, gosh!
I panicked...
I really dont know what to say...
A lecturer approached us and read out our names.
We're all present! of cos!
ME, Jo-ann (my darling), Joan and Kumari... we're all prepared!
But the only thing is we're too nervous. lolx

The lecturer who read out our names is not my assesser!
Okay... but from what i know from Joan that she was very nice and she kept hinting!
hints! of cos... i want! haha I want hints when necessary~
Well, too bad, she's not the one assessing me. haiz!
Joan and Kumari went in first... they being assessed... and successfully both of them passed.
Joan - Drain dressing + Oral medication
Kumari - Dressing + Oral medication

Then, me and joan's turn... erm... this joan is my darling ^^ Pronounce as Jo-ann.
Lolx. She kana Oral suctioning and Dressing of sutures.
As for me, i did cleansing and dressing of heel ucler as well as Oral medication.
I did pretty well for the oral medication but for the dressing... oops. pretty bad for it.
She passed me eventually. I'm glad. Another burden... lighten!!!
tt's a good thing.
MAC celebration with Kelli. waha ^^
Had mac for lunch.

After sch, i went to sembawang with Sha, Joan and ZL.
they eat KFC and we took photos ... waha :)
So fun... laughter filled the whole KFC. was that exaggerating?
Ermm. Good question! Lolx~
Then, i went to meet darling...
Huiying they all going to Cai's hse to eat dinner!
A gathering~ woohoo!
Definitely must go... Yeah*
Buy takeaways and go his hse... waha
Raining, so we took bus to his hse.
Very comfortable!
Got Huiying, Zhaoyi, Me, Darling, Deon, Andrew and Cai!
But then, arnd 7pm, zhao left.
A fun fun day!
I and huiying watched Step up! COol!
I love the movie~

I want to watch it again... LOlx
After all, we went home... raining heavily again.
Took bus to reach my hse.
Darling not feeling well, i hope he will get well soon!
Alright, darling... take care, k?
MUACKIE!!! Love ya~

Anyway... gotta study for psycho!
One test and another... coming its way. haha
Strive harder!!!

Take care, my darlings and everybody ^^

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Sunday, November 26, 2006

The way you look at me... ...

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up too
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes see everything without a single word

'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

If I could freeze a moment in my mind
It'll be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stands still
'Cause, baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

I don't know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens every time

The way you look at me... ...

`cindygem shared hers at 9:41 PM

YEAh! 25 NOV!!!
One more month and it's CHRISTMAS!
Hooray!

The most wonderful time that i had spent!

Spending the time with yr love one... YUP!
BINGO!

Treasure yr love ones!!!
Treasure everything in yr whole life!
You will never know what will happen the next moment.
So... treasure everything now^^

EVen though I spend my whole mornind afternoon at home.
Wahaha... But...
In the late afternoon... arnd 5plus, I and darling went out to national lib.

At first, dont want to go...as the sky dark dark... gonna rain soon.
But, i insisted to go out and have some fun.

Darling came to meet me under my block.
Oops. Raining so heavily as i have prepared to go out of my hse door.
I quickly msg him... worried abt him alot.
Luckily when it rained, he was quite near my hse.
But... He was so drenched! ahh!
Okay... i hope he wont get sick. Pray hard... ^_^

Then, we took bus to Yishun Mrt station and take mrt to Bugis.
OFf we go... raining still~
The train was quite empty... but sth happened!!!
haiya. not a big thing... haha
Lolx. The train rooftop leaking... rainwater drip... drip into the train
And... The seats are wet...
The uncle sat there... he knows but he got a cap on top of his head.
hahaha... He shift and shift as more n more water dripping in.
His hat was all wet with those water droplets.
lolx. I laughed... but i dont dare to laugh too loudly.

YEAH. We reached Bugis!
On our way to National lib.
And... i do my own stuff, he play his laptop as he brought along his lappie. ^^
(",) Arnd 7plus... we felt so hungry.
I recommend one place! Kallang!
Yeah! Yup... Bugis, lavender then our destination- Kallang!Kallang got lots of good stuffs to eat! yummy!!!
Well... guess what we ate?

Lolx. Mutton Soup! Soup Kambing and Mee Goreng!
Ooh... Darling bought Grass jelly drink =)

Wow... wow... fantastic!
I want to go there again someday!
I love it, man!

And we went back home afterwards...
Back home arnd 11.

`cindygem shared hers at 12:23 AM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Love can be of many splendid things
I can't deny the joy it brings

But it's like a drug that makes you blind
Fooling you everytime.

However love dont always brings joy
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie

It doesnt care how fast you fall
And you can't grab hold of anything.
Since you got nothing say at all,
Now I think i just pretend that ..
Nothing has happened before.

Now, my world's in a deeper blue
More and more disappointed... again

I'm sure I'll never do it again.
Swore my heart would never mend
Thinking that love wasnt worth the pain
But then, I stood still ...
Tears just cant flow back the way i want.

Everytime I turn around,
I think I have figured it out
But it just seems that
My heart keeps breaking and
I keep on falling again and again.

It always ends the same way
Standing in the middle of nowhere.
Seems like no matter what I do,
It tears my heart in pieces.

`cindygem shared hers at 10:07 AM

Monday, November 20, 2006

梁山伯与朱丽叶

我的心唱首歌给你听

歌词是如此的甜蜜

可是我害羞我没有勇气

对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语

难道(是)你不懂我的心

不管你用什么方式表明

我会对你说我愿意

千言万语里

只有一句话能表白我的心

千言万语里

只有一句话就能够

让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶

茱丽叶

我愿意变成你的粱山伯

幸福的每一天

浪漫的每一夜

把爱永远不放开

i love you

我爱你你是我的罗密欧

罗密欧

我愿意变成你的祝英台

幸福的每一天

浪漫的每一夜

美丽的爱情祝福着未来

为什么你还是不言不语

不言不语

难道是你不懂我的心

不管你用什么方式表明

我会对你说我愿意

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Sunday, November 19, 2006

Some photos to share with u guys!!!
Went out with darling... ... on saturday 18Nov'06 (yesterday)

PHOTOS... FOR EVERYONE ^^

A CHAIR!

UNIQUE, right? I wondering how to sit on it... lolx!

A snow-flake coffee table. COOL!

I love this coffee table ^^

A unique way of storing things... but... ... wooden... need some painting to be done!!!

A couple seat! Wow... this is the best! It is a see-saw, wondering how to sit on it???
Ermm... me too. i was also figuring out with him ^^ lolx

Seats!!! ANyone? Hahaha ^_^ I'm wondering if anyone dare to sit and dont mind having butt pain after sitting on it. wahaha!

Anyway, nice design... wahaha ^^ But.. i still think need some painting to be done.
With painting on it, will be even nicer! AM i right? :)

SWASTIKA> can u see the sign???

Much clearer?? haha!!! The SWASTIKA sign ^^

Know where is this place? GUESS!!!

U can actually see the lift from the outside! COOL!... well, so sua gu... lolx!

Still dont have any idea where's this place am i that day?
Waha!!! It's at BUGIS. Guess it?

OKay... that's all for now... take care!

`cindygem shared hers at 10:04 PM

My life is so predictable

never any mystery

but ever since you shined the light

all of that was history

now i have a hand to hold

and a reason to believe

there's someone in my life worth living for

i was hanging around just wishing on a star

to put the happines back in my heart and...

you, you put the blue back in the sky

you put the rainbow in my eyes

a silver lining in my prayers

and now there's colour everywhere

you put the red back in the rule

just when i needed it the most

you came along to show you care

and now there's colour everywhere

oh yeah...you care and now there's colour everywhere

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Friday, November 17, 2006

MY RESULTS!!! haha.. Ish results on my personality on a 5-factor model.

Factor I : Extraversion (AKA Surgency)
This trait reflects preference for, and behavior in, social situations. People high in extraversion are energetic and seek out the company of others. Low scorers (introverts) tend to be more quiet and reserved. Compared to other people who have taken this test so far, your score (35) is about average.

Factor II : Agreeableness (AKA Friendliness)
This trait reflects how we tend to interact with others. People high in agreeableness tend to be trusting, friendly and cooperative. Low scorers tend to be more aggressive and less cooperative. Compared to other people who have taken this test so far, your score (41) is relatively high.

Factor III : Conscientiousness (AKA Will or Dependability)
This trait reflects how organized and persistent we are in pursuing our goals. High scorers are methodical, well organized and dutiful. Low scorers are less careful, less focussed and more likely to be distracted from tasks. Compared to other people who have taken this test so far, your score (39) is relatively high.

Factor IV : Neuroticism (AKA Emotional Stability)
This trait reflects the tendency to experience negative thoughts and feelings. High scorers are prone to insecurity and emotional distress. Low scorers tend to be more relaxed, less emotional and less prone to distress. Compared to other people who have taken this test so far, your score (24) is relatively low.

Factor V : Openness (AKA Culture or Intellect)
This trait reflects 'open-mindedness' and interest in culture. High scorers tend to be imaginative, creative, and to seek out cultural and educational experiences. Low scorers are more down-to-earth, less interested in art and more practical in nature. Compared to other people who have taken this test so far, your score (36) is about average.

WOohoo... Studying hard for 1037 theory test. And upcoming 1037 clinical pract.

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

I have been studying in poly for more than half a year ^^
So fast!

Woah... i just cant believe i have know my poly frens for more than half a year!
ANd the second attachment is coming soon.

wow wow.... fast hor?!
My clinical theory test is on the next coming wed! woah... i tot i just taken it a few weeks ago?
Oh gosh, that was the semester 1 de...
NOw is semester 2! ALREADY!
ahhh... Semester 2 is so hectic!

I cant slow down . . . . .
And then clinical assessment is starting on the next week too!
Mine is on the next next monday! ahHHH!!! my mama... help!!!
lolx... so much of skills need to practise!

Mama also cannot help me... Lolx ^^
Have to rush n study hard for my clinical...
Practical is more important....consist of 70% of the whole module. SHOCKING!
If fail the practical, means fail the whole module. ( obviously )
SCARED. Will be assessed by our own lecturer... but... might not 100% by her.
Might be assessed by another lecturer. GOSH!
I'm scared... anxious, nervous... ahh... Panicking now*

Well... one more week to go! JIA YOU!
Take care... ...

too fast too furious // IT'S SO FAST!!!

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Monday, November 13, 2006

I have been posted 180 entries!!!
And this is the 181th entry! ^^

OOh... COOL! Well, ppl tend to be direct sometimes but i dont mind ppl who are direct and straightforward.
However, sometimes it's very irritating when ppl are TOO direct!!!
Maybe one or two times of speaking direct is alright but not very often.
Ppl wont like to hang out with those speak directly and straightforward without using their brains when they are supposed to!
SOmetimes, when they're direct, they hurt ppl's feelings.
Some know about it, but they just cant help it, because they're used to speaking that direct.
Ooh.. some very cranky... some just cant be bothered and they love to be themselves.
Yup, i agreed that being oneself is the right thing and the best way to do.
But.... being too self-centered is not a big thing at all.
Anyway, i was not trying to insult or talking bad about anyone around me or someone whom i know...
It's just that i want to point out something. It has really been in my mind for years?! haha
Hmm... So dont do things that u're not supposed to and think before u speak...
Well, i got nothing to add on with this statement... cos i sick n tired of it.
Haiz. SOmetimes, being direct is a good thing too... ahh, why am i being so contradicting!!!
COntraindications... lolx ^-^
Hmm.... i got nothing to say liao...
YAWN~ A tiring day...

Ooh... next week got Clinical theory test and my clinical assessment is on the next next MONDAY!!!
So fast hor?! haiz... why so fast siaz... i knew it. Ahh...
See... no time to waste, right?
Need to go and read up, revise on my work. NO STOPPING!
Maybe can stop for a break ^^

CANT BREATHE!

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Sunday, November 12, 2006

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL rocks!!!

I love High school musical.. their movie, their actors and actresses... and even their songs!!!
Recommended songs are
- We're all in this together
- When there was me and you
- Start of something new
- Breaking free
- What I've been looking for

Wana watch it???
http://www.youtube.com/profile_videos?user=ak8990
Here above is the link to the user of Youtube.
The user has uploaded 13 parts of the movie.
Go n watch it now, those who haven't definitely must watch it!!!
I highly recommend! ^^

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Saturday, November 11, 2006

It's hard to believe that i couldn't see

You were always there beside me
Though i was alone, with no one to hold

but you were always right beside me

This feeling's like no other

i want you to know

That i've never had someone

that knows me like you do

the way you do

And i've never had someone as good as for me as you

no one like you

So lonely before i finally found what i've been looking for

I LOVE YOU

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Friday, November 10, 2006

ooh la la... = meanin Oh my goodness.

Aniwae... i'm abit blah nowadays... hahaha LOlx
ALot of bio stuff to catch up...
And still got Socio ICA to rush...
Well... i dont like to have misunderstandings in between friends one... sob*

OOh... I dont have the urgency there... sian! How?
I like... ... haiyo... Dont want to say much...

I still need u and i still miss you...

`cindygem shared hers at 10:34 PM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Things r getting more and more complicated...
Many things seem to b very complicated to me now...
WHY?!?!?!?!
I dont know how to rephrase... I dont know how to explain...
I dont know how to describe... I dont know how to say...

I'm very confused.
I'm very vexed.
I'm very down.
I'm very worried.
I'm very anxious.
I'm very disappointed.
I'm very tired. . . . . .

I really dont know...
I'm troubled...
WITH?! Not sure...
I'm very very stressed... i think.
- having a difficulty in finding an answer or solution? Maybe...
I'm very very tired...
Time just tick tick tick and continues to go on very fast...
Time dont wait for people...
No time... cant waste... must make use...
I cant!!!

TIRED~
TOO exhausted...
Well, tend to forget alot of things.
Haiz... projects and projects...
Revisions and revisions...
Tutorials and lectures...
Questions and solutions...
Notes and notes...
Research and research...
Writing and memorising...
Learning and learning non-stop...
Thinking and thinking
Working and working non-stop...
Running and running out of time!!!
I just can't stop...

I really wan to take a break, man! No time~

NO TIME !!!

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Wednesday, November 08, 2006

YEAH! I'm back...
Okay... this morning woke up at 5plus... and couldn't sleep back.
Maybe anxious and worried about the English paper.
Well, i went out of my house and unexpectedly... i saw Dar outside my house!
GOsh!
SHOCKed, surprising!!!

I shouted,"huh?! How come u're here?!"
hahaha LOlx... so stunned. i didn't expect him to come and find me early in the morning!
hmm... i think it's very shocking! ^^
No wonder he msg me early in the morning like 6.15am! WOah... so early.
I think he didn't sleep at all...
SMILE... it's everytime on my face! (but still have to depend...)
Today taking my english o lvl paper 1 and 2!
Meet Hui Lin, Li ting and another fren of theirs.
Hmm... their fren name is Si hui... we talk and talk...
haha... Well, dar accompanied me go sch. He's so sweet and nice.
thanks, darling ^^

Yup... how's the eng paper?
haha... okok lor... I did question2 for my compo - DREAMS.
Dont ask me how to write it... anyhow lor =.=
Report writing... ish about to help primary sch students to get into the sec sch of ours and settle quickly and happily... I chosen the idea... "Have an Open House" and list how to organise...
I think i need more time for compo... i always cannot finish in time...
Then, i panicked that i couldn't finish my compre in time too.
RELAX... and... compre is much more easier than last year's paper!!!
Oh goodness, it's geo again.
If i did not rmb wrongly, i think our sec sch teachers gave us a similar topic on this to do compre.
- In what ways human caused harm to marine life... -
blah blah... all the over-fishing, water pollution thingy come out...
I think... it's quite easy for the compre.
Summary, i panicked that i could not have much time to finish too.
But... I did it!!! I managed to do just in time...
Not much points for summary... haha ^^
HOwever, i managed to write about 160 words. yeah ^^v
I'm contented. I hope i pass my english! I dont wish for so much, but i really wish for a pass!
Hmm.. after our paper, me, Li ting, Hui Lin and Si hui went north pt Mac and eat!
We went shopping right after eating... COOL! We talked about lots of things.
Woohoo!!!
Anyway, burden is lighten!!! No need to think about the paper anymore.
Can concentrate better!!! Waha
But, scary part is getting the result! Okok... dont think of that far yet...
lalala... The phrase in the compre -
Take only your memories away, left nothing but footprints behind you.
After i hand in the paper, then i realised i forget a good point!!!
This phrase in what way helps to promote the safety of the marine life?
Got two!!!
1- Dont litter, discard litter properly in litter bins. (Left nothing but footprints...)
2- Dont fish massively, dont be greedy (take only yr memories away...)
I think lah... but i dont think i'm right ^^

Anyway, too tired... i gotta go and rest. take care!

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Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Hacemos diversos sueños comparar el uno al otro.

Quién también recordó es quiénes dicha primero por siempre me ama.
Un discurso es de antemano nosotros hiere más adelante.
Demasiado largo cruzada nadie para recordar suavemente inicialmente éstos.
I y su biela de la mano dichos debe llegar juntos finalmente.
Cuánto tiempo ténganos todo el olvidado este Lu Zou.
En el corazón está el un día dar salida a a poder parar.
Deje el tiempo decir la verdad aunque yo también asustada.
En oscuridad que no habíamos sabido más adelante todo puede tener el pesar
Todos tiredly acabamos el viaje redondo de los medios para no caminar.
Cómo haga dos corazones ambos confunden dicho todos no han rescatado.
Quizás no estimado porqué usted entiende.La caída dos en amor enfrente del primer dicho humano de los partidos y así sucesivamente busca la razón separada.
Quién también recordó comienzo del amor el tiempo que cambia.
I y en su ojo vio el diverso cielo.

Tomorrow's my eng o lvl paper... OOh... my goodness, i'm stressed up...
I'm now worried... i'm tensed up... haha...
Well, the truth is i'm not even prepared to go for my paper.
Hmm... waking up at 6am to prepare and off i go to take the bus
Reaching there to meet my frens there at arnd 7.30am! oooh... scary...

Dont wan to think too much...
haiz... take care, everybody...
Nitez! i will write my entry tml abt my eng paper.

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Sunday, November 05, 2006

IMVU!!! It's crazy! It's totally wacky!

It's nice to have IMVU.
As Brandon has said, "Thanks for that great thing i recommend him."
hahaz... i have downloaded the IMVU messenger and know alot of frens.
Added them as buddies in my contact list. COOL!
It's totally rule my world~

U can chat with people all over the world... from USA, Nepal, America, Australia, Woodlands, Sengkang, Sembawang, Jalan Kayu and even in singpore.
Well... hahaha LOLx... i'm crazy abt IMVU
You guys out there should go there and try out yrselves!

Anyway... that's all... it's cool, u know!!!

COOL, right?! Join Avatar now! haha i meant IMVU. ^^

`cindygem shared hers at 9:15 PM

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Dont worry

I'm alright now... dont worry, u guys.
I'll take good care of myself.
I will listen to all of your advices, my frens.
Thanks for caring! ^^

Today... ish a SATURDAY!
Well... nothing much happened today.
I stayed at home to do my project.
Got Socio ICA. Deadline is one more week to go!!!
Okay... I have done with it le!!!
DONE~
I saw one cute video clip... actually ish a flash MV...
- http://mv.suflash.com/html/mv9275.php -
It's very nice... GO and CHECK IT OUT!

LOLx...
Oh... and i got alot of new english songs from darling...
But... i just dont know... why...
Hollaback girl by Gwen Stefani is always running inside my head!!!

-http://v2.155.com/dvd.jsp?uuid=126570-
This is the MV of the song... HOLLABACK GIRL!

Uh huh, this my shit
All the girls stomp your feet like this
A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Cause I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl
[2x]
Oooh, this my Shit , this my Shit [4x]
I heard that you were talking shit
And you didn't think that I would hear it
People hear you talking like that, getting everybody fired up
So I'm ready to attack, gonna lead the pack
Gonna get a touchdown, gonna take you out
That's right, put your pom-poms down, getting everybody fired up
A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Cause I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl
[2x]
Oooh, this my Shit , this my Shit [4x]
So that's right dude, meet me at the bleachers
No principals, no student-teachers
Both of us want to be the winner, but there can only be one
So I'm gonna fight, gonna give it my all
Gonna make you fall, gonna sock it to you
That's right, I'm the last one standing, another one bites the dust
A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Cause I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl
[2x]
Oooh, this my Shit , this my Shit 4x]
Let me hear you say, this shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
this shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
Again, this shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
This shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Cause I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl
[2x]
Oooh, this my Shit , this my Shit [4x]

wahaha... tt's all for today. nitez, everybody!!!

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Friday, November 03, 2006

S O B !

Today really ish a bad day!!!
Eh?! But today is not 13 the friday arh!
WEIRD... seems bad... today really bad, man!!!

FIRST-ly, Going to school...
As usual, wake up in the morning... and was waken by the phone ringing!!!
My sister's fren called at 6.30am!!! What?! IDIOT!
HEY! DOnt u have some manners? Call last night at 10.30pm and again this morning!
Made ppl's life miserable! ARGHH!
I know yr NAME, ok!?
No manners! Advice and warn her so many times, still like this...
No next time!!! If she calls again, i'm gonna scold her *tongue stick out*
Grrr... Grrr... - BEWARE PLEASE KEEP AWAY -

Then, prepare for my day...
Yup, 9am lesson everyday... no changes.
Oops... i eat my breakfast so slowly. . . took 20 mins just to finish my cake and milk.
Walked out of the house... oops....when i reached the bus stop, i miss the bus.
Haiz... I waited for another bus.
Very fast, the next bus came.
I board the bus and the air-con was so strong!!!
So cold, so cold!!!
ahh... almost caught a cold. HAaaa-CHOOooo!!!
I never sneeze, of cos! ^^
Sha reached Yishun first, so i asked her to wait for me at the platform.
Next, ZL miss call me when my bus reaching MRT station... just one more stop...
So i also ask her to wait for me at the platform and i told her that Sha was over there already.
I finally reached the stop and quickly got down, cross the road & up to the platform to meet them.
Yup, they're already there at the platform chatting, i walked faster to approach them.
ZL shouted at me and said I took a long time to reach Yishun MRT station...
She say...
"U already reaching reaching... but you took 15mins to reach, still consider reaching arh?!"
I talked back,
"But, i really am reaching soon... (Cut by her again, 15mins!!! U reached after 15 mins, u know?!) huh?! Really? did i? but... ... "
"If u dont believe, check the sms lor. 15 mins, u know?! Ahh... forget it."
The train came and we took the train... It's an empty train!
ZL wanted to sit. Nisha asked me to go over and sit.
I went to stand at the door there... Replying."i dont want to sit..."
Sha saw disappointing expression on my face... She approached me and stood beside me.
Then, ZL came along and stood beside me.
Silence... Total silence for a moment.
Then, i meddle with my hp... dont want to talk. -___-
Early in the morning, scolded by yr fren, u happy?!
NO, right? So pissed by ZL.
Seriously, i dont want to quarrel with ppl lor.
Somemore, early in the morning... haiz +.+
While meddling with my phone, i came to rmb sth.
Oh ya! I play Collide by Howie Day in my hp ^^
YEAH! Makes my day a better day...
I sending this song this to Sha. Expression changed! ^-^
Conversation started... we chatted.
But, no chatting with ZL.
I keep talking to Sha.
Met Vana then walk to school together.
We walked to Lecture hall. first lesson is BIO!
Oops... i think is LTK-1, so we walked further down... tapped our cards.
ZL and Vana went into the lecture hall to look for seats.
Then, next I and Sha went in, eh?! how come dont look familiar arh?
How come is Ms Rosy Tay teaching BIO? cannot be siaz.
OOps... wrong lecture hall.
We went out of the lecture hall and we laugh out loud. wahahaha
So embarrassed, man!!! Went into the wrong lecture hall.
We went to sit for our bio lecture.
Dr Raj lecturing us as usual. ^^
Talking about heart, pumps, valves...
Then, about to end... he talks about ECG - Electrocardiogram, cardiac cycle and heart sounds.
I dont know why... made me remember what my GP (General Practioner) which is also my family doctor said to me and my mum when last time i got a fever, and see doctor.
My heart problem...
Doctor's every word, every sentence always in my mind... ...
"Do your daughter has any history of hole in the heart?" the doctor asking my mum.
"Nope. Why? Is there a problem with her?"
"Erm, yes. I really have to say that she got irregular heart rate, rhymth, which is also known as Heart murmur. I just now took her heartrate,it's very abnormal. Instead... normal ppl's heartrate, rhymth is like "lub dub" - one beat and another one "lub dub". But, yr daughter's one is lub dub dub... lub dub dub... instead of two different heart sounds, hers three different sounds."
... ... blah blah... ...
Conversation is within the doctor and my mum...
Everything after that, it just became silence to me...
Nothing seem to be going in... i hear nothing at all.
I'm very scared, i'm worried... what's happening?!
I looked at my mum... she seemed worried too, her face got one a puzzled look too, wondering why and what's going in my body...
Back again, looking at the doctor explaining to my mum.
Serious?! I dont know anything!
My mum asked,"Then, what will happened to her with this heart problem?"
Doctor replied,"I'm afraid to say that yr daughter will have difficulty when she... ... ... ... (worrying worrying worrying) in future... and even ... ... that's very hard to say."
"Hmm, where u would refer her to? Which hospital to have a proper checkup on her?"
"First, go to nearest polyclinic to check, if clarify that... then we will refer her to a heart specialist in specific hospital."
Flashbacks just came right into my mind... I wanted to cry...
Tears starting to flow out of my eyes but, holding back with all my strength. . .
Hopefully, the tears in my eyes will dry up by itself as quickly as possible.
However, tears dont cooperate with me, some roll down my right cheek.
I wipe off immediately, i dont want to let my frens to know that i'm crying.
Crying doesn't solve problems.
Dr Raj was saying about the heart sounds...
He said that sometimes, when there are heart murmur (abnormal sounds) are actually alright.
It's fine... it's due to turbulent blood flow eg. "hole in the heart" or defective valves.
Well, i had went for a checkup at polyclinic last year and two doctors clarified that everything's alright in me and i had a ECG taken.
ECG - It's a recording of electrival changes that accompany the heartbeat... which also indicates the physical events in the heart.
Most of my frens know about my condition...
And i felt my heartbeat sometimes but sometimes dont... do u all feel yr heart beating without touching and feel for yr heartbeat with yr hand?
I do feel my heart pumping... sometimes, feels like popping out...
Our heart is almost in the middle but quite to the left.
Sometimes, i can feel my whole heart pumping hard in the middle of my chest.
I felt very uncomfortable... and now i still do feel that too.
What's happening to me?
My mum says i might die of heart attack when i grow old.
I dont want to think about my future. No matter what's gonna happen to me, i will still live my everyday to the fullest.
My heart aches very often now and then... i dont know the reason.
I told Corin about it, she helped me check my radial pulse for about one min.
She told me that sometimes strong, sometimes weak... very irregular.
Crying in my heart. 1 more time~
After bio lecture, we went for a teabreak at North Canteen.
All 7 of us drink tea and chat... ^^
I drank teh and ate one bun.
Saw the hunk!!! Everyone looked at me and asked me to look at him again.
Ahh... he's huge, man! He's so tall!!! LOLz ^_^
ZL shared with us her nightmare... which made her cried. sob*
I heartpain for her too.
Eating cheese before u go to bed, u'll have a nightmare. Scientifically proven?!
Then, we went for our bio lab. OOps... we're kinda late for it. wahaha!
A new lecturer!!! photos uploaded to share with u guys.
We had fun learning... he looks abit like Jim Carrey. waha ^^
He got rabbit teeth... LOLz
He looks fake.. like a fake man! Enough of criticising him.
After that, we went to eat our lunch at South Canteen.
Saw the cute guy again!!! He saw me... i so paiseh!
Corin, Vana, Kelli, Sha, Joan and ZL shouted my name.
I turned and looked at him, gosh... so paiseh siaz!
Vana and Joan wanted to take a closer look at him and another guy...
dots. . . -__-
I got diarrhoea. So uncomfortable... i got chills and rigors. So cold!!!
I'm so sick... like a sick cat! LOlx.
Ate chicken rice with watermelon juice (without ice).
We saw another guy behind us... eating lunch.
He looks like Slyvester!!! oh gosh, Corin and Kelli took photos of him eating. waha:)
Nevermind that... i still not feeling good.
Went for psycho lecture!!! woohoo!
It's so fun!!! I was been teased by Sha!!!
Lecturer Penny, our Psycho lecturer asked,"Do u guys have stress?"
YESH!!! All replied with stern and confident voices...
"Then, what makes u all stress?"
Sha said loud and clear and pointed at me, "HER!"
We're sitting right in front of the lecture hall, very very near to the lecturer.
Lecturer Penny said, "Hey, u're so bad... how can u say that?"
The whole lecture knows that i made her stress lah!
Infamous overnight!!! Grrr... Sha... u watch out! ^^
Still feeling very uncomfortable... uneasy... i think diarrhoea again. SOB*
Yup... diarrhoea!!!
And i and joan went to take MRT to Yishun.
We chatted along our way, she taking bus 969 to Tampines.
But we're being stopped by a man. Talk about what saving plan...
Sian... they're from City harvest... blah blah...
Talk crap... wan to know our names, our numbers.
Joan very direct... and finally we were free!!!
Of a sudden, one fat man approached us from our back, keep calling xiao jie xiao jie!!!
Then, he tapped Joan's shoulders... strong smoke... ahh!!! I cant breathe!
Still perservere... want to get Joan's number... want to know her. ooh?! haha
I and Joan got lots to chat about... so we went Yishun MAc to chat.
She ate Sundae and I drank Hot Milo. Feeling better~
Chat till 5.30pm. I walked home with my packet dinner.
BAthe and eat dinner with my sis & bro at home while watching Goong.
They went to bed so early.
I went online... with my worry. WORRIED~
I want to wait for my mum to come back home...
I got things to ask her.
And she finally back home at 10pm.
I asked her if she feels her heart beating without using hand to feel.
She replied, "Of cos, no. If pump very hard and virgorously, then will definitely feel it."
Gosh... worried again, my heart hurts alot even now when i'm typing.
I cried while explaining to my mum that i have been experiencing heartache since sec1 till now...
Now, it became worse... pain whenever it likes. Now and then, feel the heart pumping any moment.
My mum asked me whether i want to go for another checkup.
I dont know... i not sure... not decided... crying again... Sobsob.
Crying and crying... tears kept rolling down my eyes like a running tap.
SOb! :'(
Mum explaining to me, if i go directly to NUH for checkup, it will be very costly...
Hundred plus... if full body checkup, even costly.
But, if GP recommend me to any hospital, any doctor, then there'll be at least subsidy.
Mum telling me to reconsider... money is not the problem but she wants me to think whether wan to go for the checkup... Decision lies within myself. I have to decide for myself.
Crying... Mum comforted me... "dont cry. Why cry until like this... ..."
I dont know how to explain this, man!
(I and my mum's conversation)
"Are u afraid that u got heart attack? U scared of dying?"
"Nope. it's just that ... ..."
"What's in yr mind now?"
"I'm just... i feel very uncomfortable... Doctor's words, advices; all still fresh in my mind... kept ringing in my mind... flashbacks, everything kept appearing and making me more worried."
"Everything's gonna be alright. Stay healthy, exercise regularly; dont exert too much of strength when exercising. Is there anything wrong or do u feel uucomfortable when u exercise or after exercise?"
"Nothing. Normal. I dont feel anything at all when exercising or after exercising."
"Then, dont worry. You're fine."
- Calm and comforted. I'm feeling even better even though my heart still aches.

The time is now 11pm...

Longest entry ever.

Heartpain, raining in my heart. where's my heart doctor? where are u?

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Thursday, November 02, 2006

yoho!!!

Photos uploaded!
Poly buddies and me!!! wahaha

Totally awesome, man!
It was so fun when we take so many of photos. ^^
Now... my blog is full of photos with my poly buddies, am i right to say tt?

LOL!!! I love them!!!
Hey! Stay funky always! MUACKS!
Jia you jia you!!! MOre and more icas are coming up!!!
Well... week3 ending soon, going to week 4 next!
Ooh... time really flies -FLOOSHH~ eh? 2th Nov now...
Eh!? so fast arh?
Really need to study!!! Time to study.
NO TIME!!! This semester is hectic, man!!!
Woah... slow down!
Hey! We cant slow down, we have to keep up with the running secs, mins, hours right now.
oh oh oh .... ....
Tick tick tick... one sec go pass... another sec, slowly one full min past.
Then, another hour... and quickly one whole day just pass... Gosh!

Oh yeah! Ate lunch with Darren, Joan, Corin and Nisha.
Took photos too. hahaha
FUN!!! U know why?! - NAH, dont tell u ^^

Feel free to look at our photos at the FilmLoop.
I just uploaded them today! (^_^)

- I will always love you, you're always my darling, no matter what happens. -

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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

1st of NOV

hmm... FUN!

I love psychology!!! hahaha ^^
It's so cool!!! I would prefer psycho to socio.
Hmm... i love it!

Actually, nursing is a route to almost everything related to health sciences.
Even psychology!!! After nursing, can go psycho route.
Which is... --> Be a psychologist. COol, rite?

haha! Loving psycho!!!

Time realli pass so quickly...
10 months already!!! Congrats!
^^ I and my darling 10 months together liao! (^_^)
Great!!! Going really steady...
Hope we will be together forever... Loving you always, darling :)

- 10 months anniversary -

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