=c1Ndy's blog=

In my previous entry, i was blogging all about what i felt and what i have been thinking all this while since the beginning of our little quarrel (:

Playing games with each other aren't fun at all as it seem, u gals know?
Gals, i'm here trying to make things better in our little quarrel here.
U gals may think that the outsider is the one who should be blamed and all because of that outsider, our friendship became worse.
But... you see even before the outsider has come into the picture, we already have this problem of our own.
It's whether our little problem between us has become worse or whether the problem has opened up to be seen, you get what i meant?

Let's talk about the trust thing.
Yes, my fren... i told you what you're doing; how i felt abt the way you treat me and fren A...
I'm here trying to tell you the whole picture, you see (:
I really felt bad about going against our precious fren A here...
She must be thinking that we're all along going against her.
She's naughty, she's mischevious, she's childish, that's her.
You see... if in the first place, you have told me and the outsider that you have already told our fren A abt the things between us... then we including you wouldn't go and question fren A abt the topic again.
We're in the wrong to question her like what we did on that day; we should get to know the whole picture first before questioning like stupid idiots.
You understand?
All we need is your that sentence,"I have already told her that... ... "
Now... all along you have been knowing what's going on between me; the outsider as well as our fren A.
But i still dont get why in the first time you dont wan to tell me that you have already told my secret to fren A, even before starting to meet out to question our poor fren A???
I know it's difficult to tell me, cos you're afraid that i might be angry with you.
But think again, we're frens; trusted each other all along, why afraid to point that out to me?
If you have told me that in the first place, then we will just let the matter rest and this whole thing wouldn't happen at all (:
We still can continue to go sapphiring and we could still joke, chat and have so much of fun ^^

Telling secrets... Keeping secrets...
I wont blame you that you have told our fren A my secret, but it's yr responsibility to tell me that you have already leaked out to her. Am i right?
But when you told me, it's kind of late =.=
I trust you. Our fren A trusts you too, my fren.
The question you asked in the blog, i can answer you.
If our little fren A told you a secret which you're not even supposed to tell me, then when i ask about it, you could just tell me that you'r sorry, you promised fren A that you can't tell me, that's it... end of story (:
*(as fren A, me and you know the story; the topic involves us)
I wont be angry or got frustrated just because of that one secret that you're not supposed to tell me.
It's your responsibility, my fren.
Now you say you need to keep things from that little fren A as i told you to do so...
But that fren A keep saying that you're keeping things from her, then you can explain to her that you r being a trustable fren, cannot go back on yr words.
So is there a problem keeping things from yr frens? *Being a trusted fren?
Why should you go and tell other ppl about yr frens' things that you shouldn't be telling?
You will get benefits after telling? You will lighten the workload for yourself?
You want to share yr frens' secrets with other frens of yrs? That's not supposed to be :)

It's like for an example, *no offence*

1. My make-up example, you told me a secret - You dont like Tom and he sucks... blah blah that he's been lying to you n stuff... he told you that you're an idiot straight in yr face... he's totally a jerk... etc.
You told me not to tell anyone else... including our fren A.
So... when fren A came n approach me to tell me things about Tom, and ask me things abt Tom/ asking me what i feel abt that fren, Tom.
Am i supposed to tell her that you have been telling me things abt Tom that he say you're an idiot straight in yr face and has been been lying to you?
Definitely a NO!
Why? See...
I cant tell fren A abt what you think abt Tom because it's a secret and you asked me not to tell. Plus, it's not my opinion of Tom, it's yr opinion of Tom. Whatever u told me is what you think, if i tell fren A abt what you have told me, and fren A understands my words differently, then things get complicated.
You trust me, that's why i need to keep this from fren A *so to say i'm keeping things from fren A* am i right?
I can only tell fren A what i think abt Tom not what you think abt Tom.
It's a different thing, you see.

2. Another make-up example from me which is also the last example :D
I told you my secret that i have been going out with Tom all these while and asks you to keep it from fren A (:
Fren A suspected that something's between Tom and me... so went to ask you abt me and Tom.
So shouldn't you be keeping things from fren A instead of telling her that i and Tom have been going out?
Even though fren A kept asking, you also cannot say.
Because if you say, problems will b created.
You should tell fren A what you think...
Eg. You to Fren A," I think maybe they're getting closer, hmm... maybe you can go and ask cindy or sth? I have no idea what's going with the both of them. It's better to go n ask her what you wan to know from her and what's going on with her and Tom because cindy knows the best."
It's best to hear it from the horse's mouth.
If fren A wans to know my things, she can come and approach me. Or you can tell her to approach me too (:
Keeping things from this person is jus doing what u're supposed to do, my fren.
Because you're supposed to be the trusted one, keeping it from others.
Keeping things, you should rephrase it as *keeping secrets (:
Trust yourself. Do what you should do.

I'm here, my gals.
I wont ignore you both. I will still wan to talk to you.
Cos all along, i didn't wan this to happen between us (:
This is not what we want.
We can solve this little problem of ours together.
We can still be like before...
Things r not gonna be different, only some things r going to be alittle different...
Is that... we grow up, mature and become independent.
Creating a better relationship with a stronger bond; with greater & better understanding of each other as well as with care and concern of ours =P
I hope both my fren A and you would understand what i'm trying to tell in this entry of mine.
Saying sorry many times, but also giving many excuses for yr actions, does not make things better.
Regardless what has been done, one sincere apology will solve all problems (*this is my opinion.)
Now, there's a sorry from "the bottom of my heart" but at the same time, there's also "retreat into her shell" and "loner is better".
What do you expect me to feel as a fren?
I'm expressing my thoughts and feelings to you.
I dont wan to hide and secretly be angry with you.
But now, after hearing what i said... you choose to go back to being a loner.
So does that mean i should keep quiet the next time there's a problem between us and pretend that everything's ok?
... ...

If you decide to become a loner, there's nothing for me to say.
I do not regret what i have said so far.
I still attempt to call or sms you but if you choose to ignore me, ... ...
That is not wat frens do.
The ball is in yr court, my fren :)